'We're seeing more dead bodies than we've ever had to': First responders describe the guilt, trauma, and hopelessness of battling the coronavirus in New York
- Emergency Medical Services officers in New York told Business Insider that their mental health is at risk as the city's coronavirus outbreak leads to record-setting 9-1-1 call volume.
- EMS workers with the
FDNYare seeing unprecedented number of cardiac arrests and struggling with feelings of hopelessness as they attempt to save patients.
- Union leaders say the "war zone" is causing people to lose sleep, start drinking, become depressed, and even contemplate suicide.
- Psychiatrists and psychologists say EMTs and paramedics are at risk of developing PTSD because of the
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A handful of emergency calls from the coronavirus pandemic keep playing in Anthony Almojera's mind like montages in a film.Almojera, a lieutenant with the New York Fire Department's Emergency Medical Services, has been a paramedic for 17 years. Earlier this month, he said, he arrived at a New York apartment to find a woman in her 50s administering CPR to her elderly mother. The patient was in her 70s and had been sick all week with telltale symptoms of COVID-19. She collapsed because she couldn't breathe.
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"I said, 'Your dad passed away on Thursday, and now it's Sunday, and your mom is lying on the floor?'" Almojera asked.He rushed back to his team. "Please tell me you have a pulse," he said. But the look in his fellow paramedic's eyes conveyed the truth: The woman had died.
New York's first responders are confronting these in-home tragedies daily in what Michael Greco, vice president of the FDNY's local 2507 union in Queens, calls a "war zone." New York City has been hit harder by the coronavirus than any other in the world: more than 14,600 people there have died; a new death is recorded about every three minutes, per city data.
Based on the accounts of at least eight EMS officers who spoke to Business Insider, the incessant pressure, unprecedented levels of stress and uncertainty, and constant exposure to death is severely jeopardizing responders' mental health.
"We're seeing more dead bodies than we've ever had to," Greco said. "Not only is the workload high, but the effects of this are going to last well beyond the emergency. There's going to be a psychological toll on EMTs and paramedics that we're not going to be able to understand for a long time."Almojera, who is vice president of the FDNY's local 3621 union in Brooklyn, put it more bluntly: "Nobody's getting out unscathed," he told Business Insider.
'An enemy that's going around randomly killing people'
New York's EMS units are facing between 5,000 and 7,000 9-1-1 calls and upwards of 300 cardiac arrests every day. The average daily call volume, by contrast, hovers around 4,000, with about 50 to 70 cardiac arrests. First responders are now working 16-hour shifts for four and five days on end.But the challenge isn't the volume alone, Almojera said.
Now, he said, he can't shake the grief when he gets home. He struggles to decompress and has a hard time falling asleep."It's the same killer," Almojera said. "I'm fighting this war against an enemy that's going around randomly killing people, and it makes me feel hopeless. How do I shake that?"
Working on the front lines of
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), meanwhile, more often surfaces months or years after a sudden, violent event. That is a very real threat too, Laurie Nadel, a psychotherapist and author, told Business Insider. But she said it's difficult to anticipate the lasting psychological effects New York emergency workers face because the pandemic isn't comparable to any other well-studied traumatic experiences from the past.
"We have never experienced living through a global pandemic, which potentially threatens every human being on the planet," Nadel said.
'Overwhelming guilt'Earlier this month, Almojera said, he responded to a call about a man in his 30s with severe coronavirus symptoms. The patient had been working through the pandemic at a restaurant that remained open for takeout and delivery — it's considered an essential business. The man needed the income to take care of his 7-year-old child, the man's mother told the emergency responders.
With CPR, intubation, and other treatment, the man regained a pulse — an anomaly, Almojera said — and was then rushed to a hospital.
"He's young, we got here quick, we might be able to save him — this is the one that's going to refill our reservoir of hope," Almojera thought to himself while in the man's home. "We all saw his daughter on the way out, and I thought to myself, 'We've lost so many other people. Well, this one gets to keep her dad.'"But the man flatlined at the hospital.
Dr. Shauna Springer, a licensed psychologist and trauma recovery expert at the Stella Center in Illinois, said emergency personnel "have overwhelming guilt at times because of those they can't save."
"They carry a heavy burden of responsibility when they lose a patient," she said, adding that every life lost "can feel like a moral injury."That is especially challenging for first responders right now because their triage abilities in the field are abnormally limited. In response to the surge in New York's coronavirus cases in late March, protocols were adjusted to enable paramedics and EMTs, who were stretched to their limits, to help more people. This was also necessary since around 20% to 25% of the EMS workforce was out sick. FDNY officials instructed ambulance workers to not "initiate resuscitation" if a patient "meets criteria for obvious death," the New York Post reported. EMS providers were told to spent 20 minutes trying to revive patients, but to terminate the process after that if there's no response.
"After 20 minutes, we have to tell them, 'Sorry, there's nothing else I can do,' when we know that there's more that can be done at the hospital," Oren Barzilay, who is president of the FDNY's local 2507 union in Queens, told Business Insider. "What a traumatic event for people, and they're not doing it just one time a day — now they're doing it five, six times in a shift. PTSD is going to settle in very soon."
Before the pandemic, medics could also call a doctor if people with serious illnesses were refusing to be taken to a hospital."That way, the refusal of medical assistance is not on me as the provider — it's on the doctor," Greco said. But he added, "the system is so overwhelmed that I know I just pronounced somebody [dead] after 20 minutes. I know I could've called the doctor, but in today's world, I can't."
Emergency workers are at greater risk of depression
In his capacity as a union leader, Almojera, said, he's fielding calls from other EMS members whose work is already taking a mental toll.
"I'm getting messages from people who can't sleep at night, who can't function," he said. "They're worried, they're separated from their families in some way. They're starting to drink or they're starting to drink too much."
"It is estimated that 30% of first responders develop behavioral health conditions including, but not limited to, depression and post-traumatic stress disorder, as compared with 20% in the general population," the report said.Firefighters and EMS workers contemplate suicide at a rate 10 times higher than that of American adults, according to a February 2015 survey of more than 4,000 active professionals across all 50 states.
Greco said EMS members have told him they go home crying every night."It's a human emotion to feel sadness and empathy," he said. What worries him is what it will mean when their tears dry up. "If your psychological state is so bad that you become numb to the fact that you're seeing death and destruction, that is a bad place to be mentally," Greco added.
An overstretched healthcare system
Two weeks ago, Almojera said, ambulance workers out of his station in Sunset Park were called to the home of a person complaining of chest pains. The patient's blood pressure was elevated. But when the medics tried to take the him to a hospital, the man turned them down.
"He told them, 'No, I'm not going anywhere because I'm going to die in the hospital,'" Almojera said.The crew was unsure of whether he had coronavirus or a different ailment. But the patient's choice highlighted a new development: Some New Yorkers are avoiding hospitals, likely because of a lack of faith in getting high-quality treatment at overrun facilities, and out of fear of catching the virus in a hospital setting if they didn't already have it.
The demands on the healthcare system have affected EMS workers' own health, too. The FDNY previously did not provide "dedicated testing" to its workforce, Almojera said. Last week, however, the department rolled out testing services to those frontline workers who are showing symptoms.But that has still left EMS providers perpetually afraid that they may have the virus and just not know it yet.
Lt. Faisel Abed, a paramedic supervisor at Station 16 in Harlem, said he found it difficult to get tested even after he showed coronavirus symptoms. "I'm not trying to be rude or disrespectful ... but I'm on the front line," he told Business Insider. "I have to know if I have the coronavirus because I'm going out there taking care of you and your family, and I'm going to bring this home to my family."
Abed, who is 62 years old and responded to the September 11 terror attacks, was hospitalized with
"It's traumatizing," Abed said.
Social distancing means no consoling families of deceased patientsAn intrinsic part of being first to the scene of a critical incident or casualty is interacting with and supporting the families of people who are sick or have died.
"EMTs and paramedics are very good at consoling a family member when their loved one dies — even down to a hug or talking to them for 20 minutes while we're waiting for the police to show up," Greco said. Such work, he added, helps them accept that they did right by each patient and their family.
But the need to maintain social distance has made that impossible.Greco recalled a crew that recently responded to a call involving couple who'd been married for over 50 years. The woman died, he said.
EMS workers are also increasingly facing personal loss and grief themselves: The service lost one of its own on April 12.
Gregory Hodge spent 24 years as a first responder at two stations, first in Harlem then in the Bronx. He was among the thousands of emergency personnel who rushed to Ground Zero when the World Trade Center collapsed. Most recently, Hodge, who was 59 years old, worked as an EMS Watch Commander. But when Almojera first joined the EMS, Hodge was his partner.Almojera described Hodge as "literally the nicest man on the planet," someone who never raised his voice at anyone "no matter how crazy the situation or scene was." "This virus is real — we've known it's real, but we kept thinking, 'Oh, we can roll with it, we can manage,'"Almojera said. "But now one of us is dead."
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