"I talk about it because my heart doesn't understand cruelty. It breaks my heart because it seems to be that these days, cruelty does in fact win, although it's not about winning or losing !!!" the "Womanizer" singer wrote. "But I can't process how I dedicated 20 years of my life to those kids … everything was about them !!! For them to knock the breath out of me."
She added: "See you can't fix me !!! No therapy or sense of worship can fix my heart !!! I will forever have trauma and I know this, I've accepted it ... it would take a miracle to fix my heart and not one miracle, maybe 3 !!!"
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Spears also said in the post that Sean Preston and Jayden James told her this summer that they planned to see her less often.
"I always TRIED and TRIED, and maybe that's why they stopped coming here !!! I wanted them to love me so much that I might have overdone it !!!" the singer wrote. "This summer, they told me, 'we may come here less' and I was like that's fine. I called their dad and I told him that it seems like the boys are wanting to stop coming here as much, which I get because they have their own thing going on but I feel like they are being pretty harsh."
Spears said that Federline told her he would not let their sons come to the decision "on their own" but that she had not seen them since.
"I can not sit back and let my sons be accused in this way after what they've been through," he captioned the post. "As much as it hurts us, we decided as a family to post these videos the boys took when they were 11 & 12. This isn't even the worst of it. The lies have to stop. I hope our kids grow up to be better than this. #NeverFearTruth."
Representatives of Federline and Spears did not immediately respond to Insider's requests for comment.
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